Monday, May 2, 2011
Finding Jesus in the Doubts
Jesus came to me in a time of my life when I believed that absolutely no one could be trusted – a belief proven beyond a shadow of a doubt repeatedly throughout my lifetime. I remember wanting to belief that this Jesus I was reading about in the Bible was real. I desperately wanted it to be true, but my life experience had told me that even if it were true, Jesus, like everyone else, would eventually hurt and/or abandon me.
It was the hope that Jesus was who the Bible said he was that gave me the courage and determination to approach the Lord that first time. I remember it so clearly. I told Jesus that if he was who he said he was – he knew that the trust had been beaten out of me long ago. I told him of my deep desire for him to be the person revealed to me in God’s Word and I offered to trust him as much as I could – as little as that was – and allow him to prove to me that he could be trusted more. That was enough for Jesus. He wasn't asking me for more than I had to give - only all that I had to give. He accepted all the trust I had to offer and over the years has proven to me relentlessly that he can be trusted beyond the shadow of any doubt. His patience, love, and acceptance won my heart little by little and I have learned and believe wholeheartedly – even in doubt, Jesus is trustworthy.
I’m not saying that I have to go around doubting myself for the rest of my life. In fact, I’ve recently begun growing past my self-doubt and amazingly enough – God is still God. Doubt will continue to creep in on occasion over my lifetime, but even in doubt, I will have the rock solid assurance that God is with me, that he loves me, and that he will provide for and protect me to the best of his ability which can never fail me.
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Deer Lake Park, PA (August 09)
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