Trusting God Beyond the Doubt
|Young Man praying|
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But God did not turn away from us when Adam and Eve chose sin over him and he doesn’t turn away from us now in our own sinfulness. Instead, he stepped down off of his heavenly throne and entered into our frail and fallen existence as a gesture of his desire to be in relationship with us and then died and rose for our sakes opening the door that our sin had shut tight so that the relationship between God and his beloved children would once again be possible.
Sometimes the obstacle in our path to a more spiritually intimate prayer life is not a lack of experience or knowledge but a lack of trust when we are vulnerable. The question isn’t “Has God finally had it with me and my doubts and faithless moments?” but “Do I really trust that he loves me as I am even when I am at my most vulnerable?” With purposeful consideration or by default, we choose which question we ask each time doubt and confusion rises within us. We need to choose to trust God especially when we are most insecure and vulnerable. After all—he’s earned the benefit of the doubt. Not only are we honoring God with our unyielding trust, but we are giving a precious gift to our relationship with him that we don’t want to miss out on.
I’m an open book to you;
even from a distance, you know what I’m thinking.
You know when I leave and when I get back;
I’m never out of your sight.
You know everything I’m going to say
before I start the first sentence.
I look behind me and you’re there,
then up ahead and you’re there, too—
your reassuring presence, coming and going.
This is too much, too wonderful—
I can’t take it all in!
Is there anyplace I can go to avoid your Spirit?
to be out of your sight?
If I climb to the sky, you’re there!
If I go underground, you’re there!
If I flew on morning’s wings
to the far western horizon,
You’d find me in a minute—
you’re already there waiting!
Then I said to myself, “Oh, he even sees me in the dark!
At night I’m immersed in the light!”
Psalm 139:2-11(The Message)
What would trusting God beyond the doubt look like in your life? In your prayer time? List ten things that God has blessed you with or has done for you. When your vulnerable and doubting God’s steadfast love—think of these things and remind yourself that you can never stray so far away that God won’t be there with you. Spend some time in prayer appreciating God’s unwavering love.